whahahaha, i scraped through last night of avoiding my dad.

cos i napped for 2 hours when i reached home and then i went to run for another hour and i spent the next 1 hour playing the computer and the last 1 hour watching ANTM and he finally went to sleep. LOL... I DIDN'T GET TO PLAY MY SIMS. damn it.

am i smart or not?!

but i know i can't get away for that long, it'll be damn tiring to plan my hours according to his existance.. ZZzzzZzz.

and i hate listening to news about polytechnics having new courses, makes me feel regretful of not being born 3 years later. Perfumery course, spa management, INTERNATIONAL BUSINESS, vetinary biology etc etc. WHAT'S THIS MAN?! so unfair.

anyway not like i can get in with my pathetic loser results.

New Moon is out in the USA.. why is it always taking so damn long in Singapore. baby watch with me, you have to!

i think my brother looks like Taylor Lautner, the face, body-wise my bro is not really there yet. i'll post a comparison photo when i get a shot of my bro's full body length. LOL....

gotta work now, ciaos.

i made a promise to bibi ytd night.. i don't think he will even remember it when the day comes. LOL, if he really does, i'm totally dead cos i know i can't make it.

why was i so confident in promising to do it by Christmas.. my god, i'm so idiotic.

but i didnt mention any penalty though, LOL, so quite safe.

but i really want to make it this time round...

and the weather is getting so wet every day it's impossible to jog at night and i don't wanna renew my gym membership, i hate having to check whether there's alot of people at the gym, whether there's any vacant machine. SUCKS. and i end up being so lazy to go over....

running on the treadmill is an utter bullshit, they don't give me muscle aches even if i run for 30 mins while i get aches when i run at Simei for less than 30 mins. STUPID.. okay larh maybe i didn't give my all when using the treadmill.

and i'm very pissed off at my dad for opening my bank statement. basically opening any letters that's designated to ME! actually i wouldnt mind him opening my statement if i was loaded but now he knows i spend money like crazy and i never save.

SO UNLUCKY, i've been checking my mail box everyday but it just have to be yesterday that i didnt check and it came! FUCKERNEHNEH!

now he got more things to be sarcastic at me.. damn i hate that the most.

i hope i don't get shit tonight, purposely sleep early tonight! whahahahahahahahaha... but cannot, i wanna play my Sims 2... i'm getting hook on it again and my sister is crazy about adopting kids... the Sims way i mean :))

anyhoooooosssss, ciaos...

it's always before or during my p that i have the most urge to exercise like crazy and after the whole craving saga, i'll be lazy like mad.


so obviously now, i'm thinking about the overwhelming energy i'm gonna have if i'm gonna run;when i run, it feels very addictive.


maybe it's the extra amount of hormones produce when we girls have our p, just maybe... thus the sudden enthusiasm.


i feel like running now and i just found out that my gym membership expired on the 15th of November.. just great. the last time i went there was the time i hurt my stomach and i've never been there since which is one week ago. I WASTED ONE WEEK OF GYM USAGE and THE CHANCE OF HAVING NICE ABS.

i'm craving for that ache again but i don't want it to be as painful as the last time. i still feel the strain when i stretch, i can feel the limitation of stretching also. i hope that's how muscles and abs feels like, that contraction. LOL...

i was suppose to go last night, but i was all too lazy and the ground was wet and my p is still flowing quite a lot so yeah.. LOL.. reasons.

but tonight i will! i swear!

after running with my new shoes the other time at Simei, it felt damn good, now i know why my knees hurt. the sole's of my old shoes were the cause of it cos it was totally worn out and flat. there's no grooves and the bounce i needed. it felt so different with the new shoes. the run was smoother, more bouncier, i could last longer and my thighs felt the strain!!!!

i think tonight i can run 1.5 rounds. i think only, i wish for 2. nyahahahahaha, i wanna run with bibs again, it feels good holding his hands while we are cooling down and walking back to his place. baby wednesday okay?

and he looks sexy sweaty, not forgetting very stinky too, LOL.

oh yeah baby if you're reading this, i never bring my hp today, so don't wonder anyhow why i never answer you. actually, not like you'll call me or anything until 7pm cos you'll be sleeping liek a pig. just in case though..

i'm having a freakin' bad headache now and the irritating unpleasant techno music from the pasar malam opposite my house is making it hurt even more.

i can feel my veins thumping when i pressed my fingers to the side of my forehead. it's okay, this will help me sleep earlier and then i'll be able to get up at 5.15am later on.

i'm suppose to work out today, but the fuckin' gym is so full and i'm so lazy and my head hurts and my stomach still hurts. i'm giving myself reasons again, argh i hate it.

i can't wait for pay day! i'm gonna make a shopping list and get the stuffs which i need the most, i can already see them flying with wings around my head.

i really have to save this month and i have to go for a full body check-up. i hope i'm healthy besides being fat and flabby.

and I CANT FIND MY USB FOR MY PHONE. don't know where the hell i keep it, i have so many photos from Sabai Sabai that i haven't upload in facebook. the funny thing is most of the pictures do not have my face in it cos i was busy taking pictures for the guys. LOL.

on a random note, my sport shoes are slippery, this is not good! i don't like slippery shoes cos i have the tendency to always slip and fall.

sian, it's only tuesday and i'm feeling so depressed.

I NEED THE OOOMMPPPHHH!

my stomach area still hurts, i think i really strained it.

the boy keeps complaining that i'm being very noisy and he assures me that muscles are forming that's why. i want to believe it too, but it's too painful to be muscle aches resulting from doing ab-cises.

besides, muscles won't just form right above my very huge tummy.

counting today, its already 5 days. where got ache for so long one?! but whatever, i hope tmr it'll be less painful cos i've been hunching my back till my body aches too. i can't stretch or get up from bed properly, i can't stand immediately but to slowly get up and i can't eat properly!

but i'm not losing weight so there's nth to be gleeful about.

my mum and dad keep calling me FAT! keep asking me what i eat, why my hips and arms so big, why run so much still so fat (this is what my dad say).. HOW I KNOW WHY?! my body doesn't wanna lose weight i exercise so much also no use.

maybe i really got some illness that's killing my cells slowly so i can't lose weight. WHO KNOWS?!

ahhh, when i don't eat you complain say why i never eat, wanna diet is it? when i eat, you say i eat too much become so fat (okay larh, it's true i've been eating alot ever since the start of the year, i don't know why maybe cos i'm happier?).

zzzzzzzzzzzaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhh, i exercise till i become skinner for you two okay? don't ask me why i suddenly become thinner, dont ask me anything regarding my weight!

i want to sleep now, i'm so depressed.

my stomach still is hurting even more. must be the muscle ache starting to set in plus the injury i got, i still don't know whats wrong!?

watched Saw 6 with that boy, you know, that boy, the boy who always breaks my heart and put it back together again. he loves doing that to me and he loves when i decide to sayang him again and hug him like a baby.

that stupid boy always comes out with a new word everyday.
today's word of the day is "kid-diot" which actually translates to "kidding lar idiot". LOL.

Saw 6 doesn't disappoint, you need to go watch it. you want bloody, horror, gore and a life lesson, you get it there! that boy & me had no appetite to finish our popcorn within that 30 mins of the show.

that boy & me decided to play the toy grabbing machines in the arcade. we tried so many times for the ultra huge pig at the arcade in Illuma. we couldn't get it and we gave up. i wonder how those people can get a plastic bag full of those soft toys, it seems impossible!

the pig was really ultra huge and fluffy and the cheeks were so fat and round. too bad we can't get it, it would be a nice replacement of that boy for me. when he's not around, i'll hug it and pinch the cheek of that pig like what i always do to that boy :)

& i think i've got some illness that's yet to be known.

my back of my hips near to the spine keeps getting a tingly & mild itchy feeling, sometimes i feel a sudden sharp pain too. and i get chest pains at you know where and my ear drums will suddenly block and i can hear vibration in my ear.

i think i'm gonna die soon, i better go for a check-up once i get this month's pay.

i have to, 'else i'll die w/o reasons or die of worrying.

nights people, i hope i don't die early, i love my family and that boy so much.

i went to gym last night at 8 plus, and it wasn't empty... so sad.. everything was fully utilised.

i had to wait to use the machines. when one of the treadmill was vacant, i just went on it, didnt wanna waste time waiting for the cross trainer.

i didn't really run for the whole 25 minutes.. i did speed walking and sprinting upslope with a variation of 1-2 mins each, i could die doing that. i perspired damn fast for this..

when i was looking down on the treadmill, it looks like as if the belt was damn fast and i was running kinda fast but when i look into my reflection on the glass, i look like i was jogging and not running. so disheartening!

used the cross trainer for another 30 mins.. and i did stupid stuffs after that i think i hurt my stomach area.

stuffs like trying out the gym ball ( i think it was lau hong cos it was so squeeshy) and i couldnt get up while doing the sit-up, LOL. managed to adjust myself abit and did 20 times.

and then i decided to borrow the yoga mat and try out some ab-cises with the ball, i gave up after awhile cos i couldnt get up at all. so embarrasing, thank god no one really notice me. took away the ball and just did leg-lifts and crunches.

on my last move i decided to try out some different style of doing crunches, i thought i could get up but i was wrong. i didn't have any strength to do it and i think i ended up straining and hurting my stomach area. it felt so swollen straight after and it was hurting so bad till today.

goddddd, but i think i perspired quite alot but the strain wasn't worth it. if it could give me abs. hell yah i don't mind hurting it everyday.

LOL!